I can hear my stepdad yelling allll night long. He's so pissed off. But I don't know why, I never know why. I don't think he has to have a reason, to bequite honest.
He says things about me. Simply because he knows I can hear them. He tells my mother what he thinks of me. That i'm nothing but a stupid, worthless, idiot. A fat disgusting worthless piece of shit. I'm f***ing pathetic and I shouldn't be breathing the same air as he is. I don't deserve to live on this planet like the normal people. I AM A WASTE OF f***ING SPACE! OF ENERGY AND OF LIFE.
But I know he's right. Every single word that he says to me is completely true. And that's why it hurts me so much to hear them. We never like to hear the truth about ourselves.
If I could just be less. Something so small it's completely insagnificant. LESS LESS LESS LESS.
I'm just so f***ing worthless and it hurts to be this way. I'm so uncomfortable in my skin. I just don't want to exist. Not tonight.
Not now.
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Hi SAILORBEARE,
i KNOW HOW YOU FEEL MY REAL DAD SAID THE SAME TO ME,but I found Jesus and he my Father forever and he's kind, gental,and all ways love me when I mess up. I may leave him, but he waits with open arms ;as i come running back to him. I'm an minister ,with a wife and lots of greandkids and great grandkids and have a fuul life with my Daddy! [Jesus]
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