-Insert giant sigh here.-

I'm so annoyed with myself. I'm so sick of... everything. =\
I really hate feeling this way. But I know there's nothing to stop it.

You know, where I don't want to speak to anyone. Nobody seems to give a shit about me. Nobody wants to talk.  Even if they did, I wouldn't want to. Not even my girl. Something bad happened with that again, (surprise, surprise.) and now I don't even have the will to keep it together.

I don't even know. I'm in neutral. I need something.

I need my stepdad to start a fight with me. I need to hurt. I need to FEEL something.

I need...